im gnna keep this img here until i finish it


oct20
woah ok dissociated fr 2 days. c++ time

tumblr is suddenly filling my entire feed with ED & 'thinspo' posts..its not 2018 anymore also atp starving urself is just embarassing
(returning to this thought a few hrs l8r i kinda realized my ed never fully ended.oops)

ow my head owie owowowoow
im good now

gys I am so insanely starved for affection & attention today Rolling aroudn in bed Looking Cute & Pretty yet Alone
if u cant handl me at my worst (wanting to be alone 99% of the time) u doent deserve me at my best(the 1% of time I am super sweet and affectionate and lovelyand all urs)
idk who to taLk to Im not feeling like a whore . who wants 2 go on a ride u will never be the same

actualy I dont thhink I'm meant to belon g to anyone.. if only it was possible to invite people into my mind palace . all my thoughts and feelings could be expressed wt=ithout a single word and limit. this website is only a crumble ov it. I'll admit iget very hestitant about bringiing things from my mind into reality&readable/visual form. almost like its abt to get stained or loses parts of itself on the way. only He and She know., being with them feels better than anythin else.,,. i tried living in de real world, I do actually. real world is fun, im a pretty girl with a somewhat bright future ahead ov me. but it feels like my 'proper' life is digital & in my mind. my biggest enemies are forgetting and losing files

ive been with ppl irl . did many things. its fun,but not longterm. is it really a surprise I feel more attracted to computers & the night sky/space. yuo'd ask 'but How does thst even work?' well. you see in my mind it is...literaly..nd its soso pretty . the thought of digital lovers makes me happytoo
in the age of the machine, is cyber the new love??,,.m b . it is for me. and the people I connected with online made me feel more than ihave ever thought peoplecould .
i love de digital world

i hope the person who rejected my offer on goatlings dies give me the pretty goat i want >x-(

oct21
driving allday. almost ready fur exam..can finally open my brand new bourbon bottle..blushes

god i hate u .is everyone dead?r u dead.r you online.Istill want to talk